Is this the place?

 Is this the place to let it all out? out of my mouth, mind, spirit, onto the page...gasp, for others...to read, behold, see into me.

Into me you see: intimacy.

the real kind. the kind that allows true connection.

Now skip to the last paragraph because the next 2 are just blah blah.

Full moon awoke me again this a.m. Not the silly up at 4:20 of yesterday, but a more bothersome 3:42 which drove me straight to aubergine, the worn out slept on couch purchased before we were married which has a gaping hole neither one of us have taken pains to fix.  Me, because I developed a habit of waiting on the head of the household (Dad growing up) to fix all my broken things. Him, because he grew up able, willing, unstoppable to diy, expecting others to take care of their own s@it, and I guess it must not be a priority to him. I certainly don't wanna become any way a nagging spouse...but since I DO have an affinity for the ol' girl including spending the first hour of today meditating in and out of sleep while listening to the lovely "Scriptures to fall asleep by" which includes ocean's ebb and flow sounds, (I kept it playing even now as it's quite encouraging and mental and spirit energy boosting), I can start again to research the best how to.  Yes, the whole has gotten about 3-4x larger, but the materials I've put in there or the blankets/pillows I've put on top, have NOT fixed it well enough to restore it over to the MAIN COUCH position, and I'm not fond of this one under my bum right now.  

Apparently I can write about anything.  This stream of consciousness is both ludicrous to me as well as interesting, for that aforementioned realization.  Wordy-worderton, for sure.  Ahhh, love the syncing of understanding through old tv shows/movies.  Guess that's what's going on today with the other 3 in my nuclear family with memes these days. 

I'm old fashioned, and that's ok.  They're new fangled, and that's also ok.  Opposites absolutely attract.  It's just sticky when we marry.